Little did I know how crazy my life would become.
I posted my last post a day before we were asked to leave our home for over 3 weeks (with very little notice) due to needed renovations and no running water. But, God sure knew. He knew that I would have a mini fit about it and wish my little life would stay status quo. He knew that I would soon realize my blessings and "get over it". He also knew that after going 6 weeks without rain, it would inevitably rain most days we are in this empty apartment :-) He knew I would whine about that. He knew that I would survive just fine with a car load of things and a roof over my head. He knew I could whip up homemade meals with 1 pan, 1 pot and 1 mixing bowl. He knew those things and he knows my future.
I take such rest in the fact that God knows me. He knows that I cry when I leave my screaming son in the church nursery, He knows that He will provide amazing women to encourage and comfort me when it happens. He knows that despite the fact that my brother was given a few weeks to live, we could celebrate his 30th birthday this weekend!! ( A HUGE blessing! ) He knows that I desire to change my heart but often come up with excuses as to why I can't spend time with Him. He knows that the past two weeks of my life have been full of joy, excitement, frustration, "busyness", and encouragement. He knew that he would provide an amazing husband for me to share in our journey of life. I draw close to Jesus because He knows my heart and loves me just the same.
My prayer for you is that you feel the love of God today and rest in the fact that He knows every intimate detail about you- He created you- He knows you- He loves you. Expect big things from God today- his love never fails!
Showing posts with label Grace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grace. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Here I am Lord...
So I am not doing too well with updating this blog and wondering if I will continue. But for now, here is a little inspiration...
I have always had a heart for older people. I really enjoy spending time with people who are so seasoned in life and who have learned so much about the world and humanity. Thus, I always have a need to reach out to older people who cross my path.
I met a wonderful woman when I was in college and attending a seniors Bible study (yes, I signed up for the wrong one, but loved it so much that the 60+ year-old women allowed me to join). She has an incredible life story and is originally from Pakistan but she and he family had to flee to Lebanon when she was a child. She has lived in numerous countries during her lifetime and speaks in a heavy accent.
I kept in touch with her during our years in Annville and now that we are back in the area I make it a point to visit with her once a month or so. A year ago her son passed away and her faith in God was shattered. She is so brokenhearted that she says she doesn't believe in God at all anymore. Her only living child lives a few hours away and she does not seem to have too many friends. But, for some reason she allows me into her home for afternoon visits and enjoys my company. I visited with her last year but, after I had Noah, our visits changed drastically.
The first time I brought the little two month old to her home, she wept. As she held him in her arms she wept for the loss of her own son. Our visits since then have been full of healing and recently, joy. Yesterday on our visit she was playing with Noah and making funny faces. Noah started laughing hysterically and soon enough she followed suit. I have not heard her laugh in over a year. She was overjoyed with him and held/played with him for over an hour.
Every now and then I try to talk with her about God, but mostly I just listen to her sorrow. At one point in our visit, I watched the two of them play and thought "God you are so at work right now... please use us show her your Grace". Our visit ended and she began to tear up when it was time for us to go. I believe in my heart that she felt the presence of God though Noah's love and joy.
My prayer is that we can minister to her during her time of doubt and pain. Isn't that what God does? He loves us and holds us no matter what our feelings are about Him...no matter how much we squirm and fuss... His strong hands hold us closer until we eventually realize that it's by His grace we are saved.
If God can use an 8 month old to show others His love, God surely can use us!
I have always had a heart for older people. I really enjoy spending time with people who are so seasoned in life and who have learned so much about the world and humanity. Thus, I always have a need to reach out to older people who cross my path.
I met a wonderful woman when I was in college and attending a seniors Bible study (yes, I signed up for the wrong one, but loved it so much that the 60+ year-old women allowed me to join). She has an incredible life story and is originally from Pakistan but she and he family had to flee to Lebanon when she was a child. She has lived in numerous countries during her lifetime and speaks in a heavy accent.
I kept in touch with her during our years in Annville and now that we are back in the area I make it a point to visit with her once a month or so. A year ago her son passed away and her faith in God was shattered. She is so brokenhearted that she says she doesn't believe in God at all anymore. Her only living child lives a few hours away and she does not seem to have too many friends. But, for some reason she allows me into her home for afternoon visits and enjoys my company. I visited with her last year but, after I had Noah, our visits changed drastically.
The first time I brought the little two month old to her home, she wept. As she held him in her arms she wept for the loss of her own son. Our visits since then have been full of healing and recently, joy. Yesterday on our visit she was playing with Noah and making funny faces. Noah started laughing hysterically and soon enough she followed suit. I have not heard her laugh in over a year. She was overjoyed with him and held/played with him for over an hour.
Every now and then I try to talk with her about God, but mostly I just listen to her sorrow. At one point in our visit, I watched the two of them play and thought "God you are so at work right now... please use us show her your Grace". Our visit ended and she began to tear up when it was time for us to go. I believe in my heart that she felt the presence of God though Noah's love and joy.
My prayer is that we can minister to her during her time of doubt and pain. Isn't that what God does? He loves us and holds us no matter what our feelings are about Him...no matter how much we squirm and fuss... His strong hands hold us closer until we eventually realize that it's by His grace we are saved.
If God can use an 8 month old to show others His love, God surely can use us!
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